I breathe a strange feeling
That fills me with foreboding --
A stagnant smell is in the air,
It gives the fresh fish a scare;
And every bait just goes waste,
My soul somewhere sits in a daze.
My body hurts,
With stress it flirts,
A knot in the stomach,
A weight on the brain,
No, there's no luck
Life's just so plain.
Lives around me grow,
Relations snap, pace quickens,
We try to go with the flow;
But somtimes a matter thickens,
And you wish you could get up and walk
away from the monotony and the trade talk.
Somewhere, a heart beats with you
Wishing you would know too.
Like hills in a child's painting,
We live our lives, oscillating, vacillating.
A silent music play in the head,
I'm looking for disappeared friends.
Unclear, unshaped, unsaid,
Wells up as tears in the eyes.
There was someone once,
who wiped those tears away,
And asked me to smile.
That face, that smile, that hand,
But the tear stains are yet around.
There is no loneliness, perhaps,
But a stagnancy
that creates a bog in life.
Every desire, every wish,
Used to begin and end with you.
Now you are a straying memory
That I force myself to ignore.
More pressing concerns of daily life --
the monotony, the humdrum, the chores --
Engage our minds wistfully
And we continue ignoring our hearts....